I am a B*&^%

So today my lovely husband decided to let me know in really nice way that I am acting like a B*&^%....that being said, I am on my way to the doctor to ensure that I am taking the appropriate amount of medicine. I am truly heart broken in so many ways I can't even tell you. I feel angry because everyone in his family thinks I am a bitch, and no one wants to talk to me or always thinks I am angry at them. I have no idea what to do or where to go. I wanna run away and not come back, that is not the answer. So to strive on is the only way to survive. I hate when this syndrome gets to me like this. Sometimes I want to jump off a cliff. I think sometimes life would be so much easier for everyone if I wasn't here. But I have to keep going, I can't stop. I have to look at the good stuff, so I don't break down any more. This SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!