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Super Sunday

Today was actually a great day, got a lot accomplished around the house, and am looking forward to a week spent with my lovely husband. He is using his last use/lose vacation week this week. So we decided that the girls are outgrowing their room, that being said we chose to make an extra room out of our very large awkward living/entry way. It has been a lot of extra work and being creative, but it looks really good and Victoria loves it. We will see who is the mess maker out of the three, now that it is broken down a little bit. As for me, besides having some bronchitis issues and pinched nerve in my neck, I am starting a new business venture of my own. I have to decided to plunge into the Mary Kay cosmetic world. It should be fun and I will only get out of it what I can put into it. I am very excited, and am hoping that I can at least portray to my closest friends and family about how important it is to take care of your skin at any age. I have somethings already sold, but truly the product sells itself, I just have to get it known. That is the fun part for sure.

The hard truth

So today a dear friend of mine had a little chat with me that I was having a pitty party blog. That was truly the last thing that I wanted to do with this blog so I am going to change it up a bit and let it be a more positve look into my life instead of focusing on the bad all the time. So today I decided that I would post something positive. My family is doing great and we are fixing to start up with softball, we took the girls out practice, in the cold for a little while. That was fun to see how much they have improved, I am so proud. Should be a fun and interesting season for sure.

God is awesome

So I had a total God moment in church this am. First off, our current building is having some minor issues, so we weren't able to have service in there. Our church body decided to go to Elk Grove Harvest, and we decided to go visit our former church home and see some folks we haven't seen in a while. It was communion Sunday, and as we partook of the emblems, my bread kept breaking, and breaking and every time I would try to sorta put it back together it would break. After praying and beginning to partake, I had to put it in my mouth like a handful of popcorn, however the good part was that during this time of pain, this reminded me that my body was the bread and that God can put me back together anytime He feels He is ready too. No one else's bread was broken or breaking or cracking. It was very just like God to remind me in the small things that He is still in charge, I just have to remember to surrender to His ways, so that He can one day make me whole again.

Sorta good Saturday

Today I felt as though I didn't have time to focus on my pain. I was the family taxi for softball games, softball practice, sleepovers and finally a make-up party. The good thing is that I was so busy that I didn't have time to think about how I was feeling until now. And I am actually winding down, and am noticing that the heating pad is really helping. It is a little chilly in the house so I am trying to stay warm as well. My shoulder is on fire as is my neck tonight, but overall I think I am going to make it til tomorrow. Today was for sure better than yesterday so things are looking up. Can't wait for what tomorrow will bring.

Profound Friday

So today I discovered that when the sun is out, I feel great, when the clouds begin to gather is really when I physically go down hill. In fact, I actually really had problems near the end of the day. This may not be a big deal to most besides a sign of rain, but it is to me so the slightest change in weather is not good. I coulda told ya rain was coming the other day. My shoulder is hurting and my neck is killing me, and I am experiencing some numbness and tingling in my right hand...not sure I am too happy about that to say the least. Hopefully tomorrow will be much better.

Thrillolicious Thursday

So today was kinda crazy busy with errands and md appt for Daphne. It was amazingly gorgeous outside so that made it ok. I managed to squeeze in a 15 minute cat nap, but that wasn't nearly enough. Followed by some serious folding and putting away laundry and endded with a very chilly softball practice. My back is really aching as are my feet and shoulder, so I am super tired, I really wish I had a pain pill right now so that I could just go to sleep, I know that would help...it is pay it forward Friday tomorrow....do something nice for someone whether you know them or not.

whew Wednesday

So today it rained most of the day, but I didn't have any plans/commitments, so I fell back into my rut. Sleeping a good part of the day, not getting dressed til I absolutely had to. Finally, when it was time to get the girls from school, then I sorta felt normal...but still not myself. I am sure it is probably the weather,but ya know could be me too. I know shocker......no headache just shoulder pain. I have started to eat breakfast and not just have coffee in the morning, I don't feel like I am going crazy, I am sure that food in the morning is helping. And I know it is helping my metabolism as well. As for the anti depressants, well not so much, I seriously have no emotion, about anything at all. I don't like that, I feel that is not who I am for sure. I hope you all are having a great week, down hill to the weekend. Yipppppeeeee

brain fog.

So today I thought was going to be better. I knew it was going to rain, my body told me so....but I figured that i would try to make the best of what I could. I helped in Daphne's class for a bit, went to Target for a couple of things, found time to nap, fix dinner and clean up afterwards. This all seemed fine til after the softball meeting, I decided to get the girls a root beer float from the local KFC/A&W. I was fine but I only need to order 4 things, but I kept getting them confused, plus then when the girl re said what I had said, it didn't sound like it was the same thing. This became so overwhelming for me, upsetting for the drive through girl and the girls had no idea how to help me. I could tell by the sound of the girls voice she had no idea what was wrong with me, I just knew I had a really bad fog right at the moment and couldn't figure it out. I couldn't even cry at that point, but I know that is from the anti-depressants. After we made it through all of that, I tried to think about what maybe caused me to blank out. I still have no idea, but I think it is time for me to visit the MD again, for some medication review.

Monday, Monday.

I can't believe that I actually managed to have stayed awake all day....usually I find time to rest at some point during the day so I am a little bit more user friendly, if you will. This morning though with the promised time spent at the school, helping in my daughters class, followed by a lovely lunch with a good friend, then pick up the girls and then my wonderful man got home early. I felt bad physically, but also emotionally because I couldn't really fix a decent dinner for the family, just wanted to crawl in bed and pass out. So now I am tired and sore and B*&^%ing to all of you. This is such a great way for me to really get out all the junk that I am feeling inside....much better than taking some pills and it is documented. Hopefully, tomorrow, even with the expected rain, I really want to feel better.....oh mr. sandman please come to me.....soon.

Random thoughts

First off I need to apologize for not blogging....I really feel bad about that...now for a more recent update. Some thoughts I would like to share....

This pain, this pain, maybe the death of me.
Misery really loves company
This is not a cop out,
Just a look at reality.
Don't want it to get me down,
or force me into the ground.
It is time to get my fight on,
It is time for me to press on,
with so much to live for,
God please help me
I can't do this on my own.
sometimes I feel all alone,
I have to force myself to get out
as to not get stuck in a rut
to being all alone
in my car or in my own home.
God please help me.
He is there
whether I realize it or not
to remind me each day
in some sort of way,
He has a plan for me,
sometimes I get tired of building my testimony,
but really it is all for His glory.
God please help me.


Not profound just some feelings.....My pain is coming/going, although I would prefer mostly going, it depends on the day. We have new insurance now, so I am no longer with Kaiser, not really to worried about it, I am more on a maintainence plan now, as far as MD visits go....we will see how this goes.