Random thoughts

First off I need to apologize for not blogging....I really feel bad about that...now for a more recent update. Some thoughts I would like to share....

This pain, this pain, maybe the death of me.
Misery really loves company
This is not a cop out,
Just a look at reality.
Don't want it to get me down,
or force me into the ground.
It is time to get my fight on,
It is time for me to press on,
with so much to live for,
God please help me
I can't do this on my own.
sometimes I feel all alone,
I have to force myself to get out
as to not get stuck in a rut
to being all alone
in my car or in my own home.
God please help me.
He is there
whether I realize it or not
to remind me each day
in some sort of way,
He has a plan for me,
sometimes I get tired of building my testimony,
but really it is all for His glory.
God please help me.


Not profound just some feelings.....My pain is coming/going, although I would prefer mostly going, it depends on the day. We have new insurance now, so I am no longer with Kaiser, not really to worried about it, I am more on a maintainence plan now, as far as MD visits go....we will see how this goes.