Oh this is crazy

Today has been pretty rough, spent most of the day unfortunately in bed. Sometimes I wonder, why??? I feel emotional about the fact that I can't do all the things I want to with my children and husband. And I feel sometimes as I am sleeping my life away. Crazy I know, but that is how I feel. I wish I did have the flu, so I can get over it and move on. I feel that sometimes it is in my head, but then someone will touch a sensative area and I nearly jump through the roof. That is when I realize that the pain is real, and it is a real problem. I am saddened as I sit here in the dark of my room, knowing that my husband and children are at the park having great times together and I am here to wallow in my own pain. Even the dog is in the other room....lol I guess that is all for now...will write more later.